White Flags

Darkened meadows

Dreamscapes draped upon

Sound shadows.

Scale the walls

(up and down);

You have no use for me now.

Bring about a common enemy,

Searching for the end to suffering,

While engaged in a muffled slumbering.

Excuse the accused,

Innocence is at its near.

Yet, guilt stays beyond the felt,

In corner coves covered in fear;

A hot burning stove,

But outside, mango groves

(they continue to grow).

Destination still in sight, without turmoil,

Posing a threat to abet to the rules left from drained and ruined oils.

Who will take the role of the fool?

The one who will pity the precious parties

and twisted tongues…those who have yet to be abused.

Challenges chased and unmarked schools

(What a remarkable excuse!).

Be quiet, and no one will lose.

However, remember, the whispers in silence

are not to be taken harshly.

Light is found in the lightly.

Do not upset the marshlands,

(Jump off the old bandwagon)

And keep marching…

Vibrant Hues

Wonder Boy,

Truly wonderful, you are.

Staring up; equally matched ensemble,

(if only I could be that humble).



From afar:

(Who said Love had to be “hard”?)

No idea to be known;

Close up, feelings would grow.

Not what is said,

But what is done:

I should have known you were the one.

Action, a calm reaction;

Pleasant pews.

Accepting, reflecting:

Should have given the chance

(When you wanted to).

Attached, perhaps.

Depending, expanding,

(never ending)…

The love I have,

What I feel,

Is true.

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Spiteful promises



Truth behind masks of serenity.


I did not plan to be;

Corrupted, interrupted by my own worst enemy

(and interpreted wrongly).

Pledges to purity

Won’t save goodness instilled beneath.

Let the spirit soar;

Run free,

Please, do not run away from me.

Begs to be certain, for sure;


Let nature take its course

(and choose wisely);

Making up for lost time,

Times infinity.

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Right Which Way

Oh spontaneous sweetheart,

Today is a new start.

Wallow the tears dry

And pour into my glass;

Rub your tired eyes.



Towards the clouds.



Set gears towards life;

Death will not succumb.

Please, Dear, you are never alone…

My shadow haunts yours, I know it to be true,

But without, I am as lonely as you.

We are,

Not toxic,

But intoxicating.


Do you know of it?

It comes and goes,

While jealousy rages beyond the pillars of a night’s defeat,

The wagon’s tires stopped in its tracks,

A deer spotted by headlights.

Bless the sanity we still bleed…

I know

Not of what is to come,

But you, my Angel,

Are involved.


You are lovely.

I swear it to be true.

This was the potential, the asking for;

Grasping at

What is us.

Legends unfold in a clear liquid,

Epically drawn with ink none can read or speak.

But we, Darling,

This holds honest, for,

Your gentle kiss has me at my last tumble;

Fumble is not fatal…

I, for one, will not let go

(Please say you will not either).


To this market; growth.

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In An Upside Down World, Try Pineapple


Ever since I saw this episode of The Marvelous Misadventures of Flapjack in 2009, I have quoted and sung it on and off again (to myself, to my friends, to my mom, and to my dogs). It has stuck to me like maple syrup. I decided enough was enough and I was going to actually attempt to make a pineapple upside down cake.

Pineapple contains an enzyme called “bromelain” (primarily found in the fruit’s stem) which aids in digestion through the breakdown of proteins. This cluster of fruits possess anti-inflammatory benefits which help prevent blood clots and can help soothe arthritis, as well as act as an immunity booster. In addition, it can help improve breathing in asthma patients. It is also used to stop cold beer from clouding!

About pineapple, bromelain and baking:




I am not a huge fan of cake (although I do love raw cake batter and LOVE pineapple), so I did not want to go to the extremes of making this a huge ordeal. I had found a recipe on EasyBaked.net and wanted to give it a try. I made some of my own adaptations, and experimented with a few different ingredients. I wanted the cake to be moist and fluffy, so I added an extra egg and a packet of instant vanilla pudding, in addition to Lactaid milk in substitute for water.

The troubles: The cake took a while to bake, and I had to turn the oven up half way through the baking process to ensure it would cook through. In addition, the syrup began dripping out of the bottom of the springform pan I used, and burned. It definitely steamed up the kitchen in a way I would rather not recreate again. I would highly recommend using a different dark, non-stick pan, one with a solid bottom that will not leak.

For next time: Besides baking the cake from scratch, I would obviously use a different pan. However, the cake came right out of the pan when I flipped it over, and it turned out better than I had expected. Apparently Duncan Hines calls for egg whites to bake their classic white cake, however, the box did not specify – that probably would have been a good idea. According to my mom, “See, shows you that you can do whatever the hell you want” – and that is what baking and cooking should be about – taking risks and trying new things. If it comes out, great. If not, whatever, at least you tried!

Keep pushing through those difficulties, especially in the kitchen, they may serve to further in the end. You always learn a lesson for the next go around!


Pineapple Upside Down Cake

Adapted from: http://easybaked.net/2012/07/05/mini-pineapple-upside-down-cakes/


  • One boxed white cake mix (plus 4 brown eggs, Lactaid milk, and vegetable oil to make the cake) (I used Duncan Hines)
  • 1 packet (1 oz) of Jell-O sugar free instant vanilla pudding (added to cake mix)
  • 2/3 cup packed dark brown sugar
  • 1 stick (1/2 cup) melted butter, unsalted
  • 1 fresh pineapple, cut into rings then cut into chunks (you won’t need the entire pineapple)
  • Maraschino cherries, to top (optional)


  • Preheat oven to 350 degrees Fahrenheit (I started at 325, but turned the oven up to 350 mid way through)
  • Spray the bottom of the pan (I used a round springform) with a non-stick butter spray
  • Spoon half of the sugar mixture evenly into the bottom of the pan, spread evenly
  • Place the pineapple chunks at the bottom of the pan, spread evenly
  • Melt the butter and mix with the dark brown sugar to create a semi-thick paste
  • Prepare cake mix according to box with a stand or hand held mixer (for a moister and fluffier cake, try something along the lines of 4 eggs, 1 cup Lactaid milk, 1/4 cup vegetable oil, and 1 package of instant vanilla pudding)
  • Spread the batter evenly into the pan on top of the pineapples, ensuring they are covered
  • Place pan on a cookie sheet (important– these will leak a little!!!)*****(this is ESSENTIAL – the syrup will burn!)
  • Bake at 350 degrees for about 45 to 50 minutes
  • Allow pan to set and cool (I flipped it right away and only a few pineapples stuck to the bottom of the pan)
  • Pour what is left of the melted butter and dark brown sugar mixture overtop of the pineapples and cake (you may have to heat the mixture in the microwave for a few seconds to regain its texture)
  • Top the cake with cherries (optional)
  • Allow the cake to cool for a few minutes, eat while warm or save for later. Enjoy!

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Delete The “Want” and “Need”

Count everything twice,

Read it back thrice;

Every problem is

One step closer to a solution.

Must give a lot, not get wrapped up in delusions,

Fixed in institution.

Well, we came so far, now we can’t go back,

Cover up the footprints with dirt;

Get off the railroad tracks.

And it’s been so long since I’ve seen real love.

One sided guilt trips,

Riding on a mule whose carried all my luggage,

Weighed down with extra baggage.

Push forward to the top:

Today may be gone, but tomorrow’s a new start.

To think we are only divided by one common enemy:

The falsehood inside of us,

Well, maybe that’s the problem.

The right to let it out, not hide it;


A test to conquer, not let this get the best of me.

Unstable, surely able,

With a gamble, I can live for eternity.

Peace is a state of mind,

Not to take refuge in pieces of the past’s

Storage – it won’t last.

The life I will live is in front of me,

But something’s gotta give.

Be grateful for what you have,

Take what you can get,

Try not to ask for more.

The solution to the problem is spirit,

A common thread that we all ignore.

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Ashes From Ashes


Homicidal thoughts, you’ve been staying for too long,

(a while)

While the devil him/her/itself sends me adrift.

Parting tides,

Partaking sides.

Never meant to be thrown off a cliff,

(so dangerous)

But the sides of the mountain

Stay steadily rocking,

Destined to move in the slightest bit.

Why am I holding onto something that is so easy to throw away in an ashtray?

Latent with a film only found in a chain smoker’s throat,

And a cough that seeds a disease

Worth fighting through.


My mind takes to absence and gears towards flight,

While the guardian angels protect me at night.

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Words Can Only Take Us So Far

Cancel out the noise,

because the street light’s glare is way too bright

Stay on point,

because I may inch a-way ever so slight

Keep a steady hold on the breaks,

because I am bound to break in half

(in some way)

Give speech a real chance,

because duct tape is only temporary

and silence is mandatory

Hurry to stitch and sew my heart back together,

before I lose it again for another…

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