The purpose of my reflection is to progress – develop, learn and ultimately, reach a goal(s). To improve and better myself. The stress and anxiety is still burdened upon me, and I find myself sinking into past (bad) habits. Just as I had previously reconciled – people do not change – we grow older, but we are the same. With this awareness should come correction and improvement, but rather it has showed me what I am good at it and what I actually need to improve upon. My priorities are coming together. It will take time, dedication and patience, but I swear to myself I will get there. The purpose of my life may not be clear at this moment, but I have much to be proud of: an undergraduate degree, a new job, a drug-free lifestyle, a more positive attitude. Yes, there are things I still need to focus on – re-channeling negative and paranoid thoughts, controlling my anxiety, finding motivation. Most of all, I need to learn how to let free and have fun. This is something I have struggled with for as long as I can remember. I will get to where I want to be some day, but just like a puzzle, each piece needs to be strategically placed – even if it’s not done in the “correct” order. My list of goals has not gotten shorter, but I can at least say I checked a few items off.
I am so blessed and thankful for all the positivity and support that has been sent my way.